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There’s always going to be another mountain always going to want to make it move always going to be an uphill battle sometimes you’re going to have to lose it aint how fast I get there it aint about whats waiting on the other side it’s the climb. How do you get through something without wondering why? How do you get to a point and say okay God I give it to you? How do you get to where you can sleep and not worry so much about what is going on? I know what doesn’t kill me will make me but gosh will I ever catch a break. I always want to speak out and break the arguing that goes on. I want to reach out to my mom because she is hurting. I want to reach out to my brother he is hurting. I guess being strong is my only option. Sometimes I wonder what is going to be good out of this. It hurts like heck. I don’t understand what is so bad about my family for him to want another one. Did I do something? Does he not want me? I know I lashed out and for that I am sorry but you were making me mad. I am sorry for that.