Forever Reign..

Jesus I'm running to Your arms. I'm running to your arms.

just please catch me.

I have always known..

I have always known that I would never be one of the drop dead gorgeous girls since I was about
7th grade. I never enjoyed dressing nice nor did I enjoy being the girly type. I liked blue jeans,t-shirt, and my hair in a bun; and that is how I dressed daily. I've never really thought I was pretty or anything, I've just told myself that I had a big heart and that is what mattered because eventually looks will fade. Even though I have totally accepted the fact that I'm not beautiful on the outside, it still totally hurts my feelings when someone makes a bad face at me. Example: Tonight on the way home out to eat a boy in the truck beside me looked in my truck, put is pointer finger to his open mouth and made the gagging face. This isn't the first time this has happened, it happens quite often, especially on chatting websites. I guess all that I am trying to get across is for once I wish that someone would call me beautiful.. and mean it. Yes, I know it doesn't matter what people think but I guess it would be a self confidence booster, but I shouldn't have to worry about what people think or worry about how I look but it's SO hard to try to be different from the world.. All I guess I want is acceptance..

Tonight, I was talking about pageants with my mom and she made the comment that if I ever tried to do one of those I would win.. If only that was the truth.. lol

Well..

In the past two days I have been called a disgrace to humans, ugly, deformed, fat, stupid.. and the list could keep going. I wish I could act all high and mighty saying that it doesn't bother me, but I can't. It hurt my feelings.. a lot.. I just know that they have nothing else to do but talk about other people and are no life's..

What a great way to start out the week.. nsm

On a good note, I might get my brace of Wednesday. WOOOO :D