I wonder..

I wonder where all this is going to end at one day. I wonder why all these tears are shed and all the times I wish that I could go back and put a patch and heal my parents. I wonder where the ending of friendships will lead me one day. I wonder why I am at Trinity. I wonder why I am such a sensitive person and I can cry at the sight of someone falling and scraping their knee. I am constantly told that I need to grow up and stop being so sensitive; but that is who I am so how can I stop it. I wonder what the reason of going on the computer and typing all this stuff will do for me in the end. I wonder who actually cares what I think. I wonder if he ever really did care about me or did he just say it. I wonder if he ever meant what he said. I wonder if relationships ever can be truly mended. I wonder if sarcasm will ever be taken as sarcasm from me. I wonder if one day I will ever be able to share my opinion on something and not hold back. I wonder what is so great about love. I mean the divorce rate is 50% in the U.S. I wonder if the vows you take are ever really true. I wonder if there is anyone out there who is willing to do anything for you. I wonder if the past is ever really a past. I wonder if there will ever be a day without drama. I wonder if there really is compassion in the world. I wonder if there really is someone out there just for me. I wonder if friends ever stay friends forever; or are they a lie to get what they want. I wonder if dreams really do come true. I wonder if “don’t tell anyone” ever works. I wonder if you can really trust anyone. I wonder do counselors all think you are crazy and just do their job to get in other people’s business. I wonder does growing up ever scare anyone but me. I wonder if college is as scary and hard as people make it out to be. I wonder what happens after graduation. I wonder how you get a job as a CSI. I wonder what it’s like to be in a job. I wonder what really matters.